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The power of Thank you


During the committal service, the finality of the occasion was sobering.

They lined the casket up in front of the furnace doors. From dust to dust. Out of the corner of my eye, I noticed someone. There stood a short, Indian lady. Her gray hair and weather-worn face, walking stick, and limping walk told me her age. As the casket was pushed into the gaping maw, I could not help but walk forward, wishing I could stop it, reverse it, or perhaps, one final goodbye. Only she and I moved forward. Up to the threshold of the doors, but if not stopped, she would have gone even further than I.

She came from Ceylon, she said. Studied only till form 2. She was just the lowly telephone operator for RRIM for over 40 years. At the Research Site in Sungai Buloh, with officers and researchers scattered in several buildings, she had an analog plugset to transfer voice calls.

“In all my time at the Sungai Buloh station, only your dad said thank you to me each time I transferred a call.”

She came via Grab all the way from Malacca, and she was waiting for another Grabcar to take her home. She was 81 years old.

“Thank you for coming,” I said.
She said, “You sound like dad. Take care of mum.”

1/8/2025

The Sunrise

July 26

The Sunrise.

Saturday. The landing.

You hardly wake.
The morphine is in.
The breathing is erratic.
The oxygen low.

Dad, do you see the sunrise?
Yes, you said.
Go, I said.
The full glory of the Lord most high.

Undimmed since the beginning of time.
Those nail-scarred hands that never let you go,
Now welcome you home.
And one day, I’ll see you again.


Homeward Bound

July 10

Homeward

I know where you want to go.
Your real home.
You’ve heard his voice.
It’s where you belong.

Seeing you now makes me cry.
Holding your hands.
Caressing your head.
I remember.

Oh, the journey we’ve been.
Hearing your voice.
Your silent presence.
Memories I keep.

Whenever He calls.
Your pain and frailty will be gone.
You’d see the most amazing sunrise.
The full glory of the Lord.

El Roi.
You have seen the God that sees you.
Your God, your savior.
And he calls you now.

And finally you’d be home
Back in the hands that made you.
And I’ll see you again.
When I cross the river.

Sing

Seven-Seven, The Seventh of July.

The gray skies loom.
Darkness never seems to go away.
The anguish remains.

My heart remains torn.
And as my breath weakens.
I will still sing.

Hallelujah.
As the tears fall.
Hallelujah.

As the darkness surround me.
Fears drown me.
I will still sing.

Hallelujah.
In the face of death.
Hallelujah.

At the end.
The sun rises.
My God, my King and has rescued me.

And death has no power.
I will still sing.
Hallelujah.
I surrender all to You.

Held

2 July 2025

The hands of the creator.
The very hands that crafted the universe.

The very hands that surrendered to human nails.
Surrendered at Calvary.

I’m fading.
I’m crying.
I’m falling.
I’m losing control.

This tempest overwhelms.
The wind roars.
The thunder shakes.
And the waters swallow me.

Who will rescue me?

But I hear, in quiet voice in the maelstorm.

The voice that spoke the world into being.
The voice that calms the storms.
The voice that made all things.
The voice of salvation.

The voice calls my name.
Who am I that you would call me by name.

My son, you are mine.
And you are in my hands.
Forever.

My God. My savior. My King,
My redeemer and my salvation.
All fear is gone, because I am yours.

Forever.

Emmanuel

1 July 2025

The night falls.
And tears fall.

Why Lord.
Why?

In the anguish, silence.
In the silence, stillness.

Be still my son.
Emmanuel.
God with us.