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El Roi

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Sunday the Twenty-nineth. 

The hours stream past. 
The mind still reels.
Numbness in the morning. 

Unraveled.
Shattered.
Falling. 
Falling. 

Pain. 
Crushing pain. 
My heart aches.
I can see nothing.

Eli. Eli. 
Have you abandoned me?

In the silence.
El Roi.
I have seen my God who sees me. 
I have heard the God who has called me. 

Through it all

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27/6

Another morning arrives
Another restless night
Does the earth still shake?
Be still my heart. 

Is the Lord in the howling wind?
Is He in the stillness of the day?
Where are you my God?

In the deepening gloom,
As night falls. 
Let it go my soul. 
Let your heavy weight go. 
At the feet of Jesus. 

It is well, with my soul. 
And my eyes are on you, Jesus. 
Through it all. 

Forever

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25/June

Rain.
Rain on a parched land.
Rain, on my dry spirit.

Like a dessert hoping for the rain.
My soul hopes.
Even parched, I sing.

In this wilderness, I am not alone.
Forever.
Forever, you are with me.

The blood on Calvary.
Your love has overcome.
And your love is Forever.

My Soul

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24/June/2025

The sun rises.
The birds sing irregardless.
But I’m drowning, In the flood.

The fire is overwhelming.
The earth shakes.
The lips tremble and stay silent.
Words fail.
The hurt, the sorrow.

Easy to say.
When nothing is burning.
Ruin. Ruin.
At the world’s ending.

If only Lord.
One word and all restored.
What if you don’t.
Even if you don’t.

At the world’s ending.
I will sing.

It is well with my soul.
It is well with my soul.
My hope is in You, alone.

Where is my God

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23/06/2025

Numbness.
Despair.
Pain.
Conflict.

Where is my Lord Almighty?
Where is the shepherd of my soul?
Where is my God, my savior?

The night doesn’t answer.
The morning bears no tidings.
The heart hears no song.
Tears fall but wash nothing.

The sun scorches.
The hours, a torment.
I am lost in the wilderness.
Cries do not even disturb the earth.
I find no rest.

How do I sing of your love?
Overwhelmed.
Crushed.
Broken.
Shattered.

In the endless desert, I can only see the cross.
The only thing that stands is the cross.

On the cross of Calvary.
My only hope.

Stillness in the dark

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21/06/2025 4:22am

The stillness of the night suffocates.
The silence deafening.
The turmoil of the mind paralyzes.
Fear and anguish rule.
The darkness, an endless void.

Yet in the center of the maelstrom,
There is a calmness.

I am secure.
The Lord my God is in the center.

I am held by the same nail scarred hands.
The hand that made me.
The hand that lead me.
The hand that saved me.

And the hand that will never let me go.
For I am His. Forever.